Alone

All alone lying in my bed...
As I wait for dreams to descend upon me...
My mind is full of just a single thought...
Why in this world of six billion do I feel so apart...

Apart from my family...
Apart from my friends...
Apart from work...
Apart from myself and apart from life...
My life revolves around doing the same thing everyday...
Not a bit of spice or variety...
Nothing to look forward to...
Nothing to expect...
All I do is run like a sprocket in a clock...

Why is it that I am alone...
Why is it that sleep eludes me...
What makes me write depressing stuff...
Why am I in constant grief...
The happiness from my face has left me...
The twinkle in my eye has vanished...
I live everyday already knowing what's in store tomorrow...
I feel all alone today and have the same notion about 'morrow...
My friends tell me my day will come...
I will not be alone...
My patience and belief are fast thinning out...

They say no one likes a loner...
No one likes a cribber...
No one wants a depressing person around them...
They tell me I should cheer up...
They tell me I should live my life as it comes...
I try my best to put on a face...
Not to crib, not to depress...
I go about my day without a whimper...
I try my best to fight what life throws at me...
I still wait for someone to accompany me...
But when I am alone at night...
I still wait for dreams to descend upon me…

I had a fight

With my own mind, I had a fight

For I am not able to write

My heart is heavy, words don’t come,

All my feelings, how can I sum?

As you leave and I wave you a goodbye,

There will be a smile but eyes cannot lie

Everything will be same-summer, spring and rain

But the roads of life will be empty again

I do not need to tell I will miss you,

 And I know it’s the same for you too..

May all the luck and success comes to you,

And may all our dreams come true!

With my own mind, I had a fight,

For there is so much to write

My heart is heavy, and the words do come

But still, all my feelings, can I sum?

Death

I'm dead, still but cold,

At least peaceful and purified,

Without unpleasant thoughts or deeds,

Being taken for my final or deals.

Maybe, I'll be laid in a grave,

Or on top of pyre for rest,

Exhausts are the fires of agony,

In my totally inactive breast.

Now, as eternal my soul remains,

Free, carefree as the clouds,

With neither anxiety chains,

Nor the painful anguish bonds.

I'm far from Earthly wants,

For no longer, my heart yells,

For neither thou need or want,

For I'm complete as my grave fills.

U r my only asset to whom i owe

"u r my only asset to whom i owe"

Silently, I sit by the window gazing the horizon

As for me it seems the time has frozen

Darkness is all what is pouring in

The only sound I can hear is my heart beating

My eyes feeling sleepy and heavy with pain

I could see on my cloth-the nasty red stain

 

I know there is nothing more for me to gain

Still I am continuing my desperate prayers-all in vain 

A sudden nightmare has shattered my identity

Which counted on me an irreversible casualty

 

A drunken driver, and for saving a child

He left me amidst the world howling wild

Together we had embarked on a treasured love

With our innate pious feelings well gelled up

He always would say

         "A life full of hardships, I was leading

         And from nowhere as an angel you walked in"

He was there to hold my hands always

To make me the happiest with his crazy ways

When I feared that I would be left lonely

My dearest one would embrace cozily

Kicking my feelings of life's agony

But now I sit by the window gazing the horizon

As my life slowly engulfing the deadly poison

One day he had whispered to me low

"You are my only asset to whom I owe"

Now dear, it’s my turn to show

That I can fight all the shackling woes

Now, I can feel my pain getting numb

Reaching for you dear, just hold my arm

The frozen time has again started flowing

As I sit by the window with my eyes closing 

byTanu