Who am I

The code is getting darker and murkier,
I was meant to be a Polymorphic one,
The designer made a metamorphic one,
The programmer developed an E.P.O.

I tried to mutate morph, spread and multiply,
I Encrypted my soul with a different key each time,
I pretended decryption routines,
I inserted and removed garbage instructions.

I switched op codes  & replaced entire logic blocks,
I patched function prologues& redirected control flows,
They said, I was in the wild,
They caught me, abused me, insulted me and disgraced me.

They could never crack my code,
So they put me in a "ZOO" and gave me a name "Crazy Hax0r"

What is LOVE?

A heart in mind....

A word in hand....

I write this poem....

In all errands....

A feeling so true....

 Like flowers and its bloom....

If this was Love....

I'd bet it was you....

The purity of a heart....

The beauty of a rose....

The dream of a soul....

Is what makes a thing called 'Love'....?

As I walk along the night....

And I see the stars so bright....

I wish I had you in sight....

And we would fly like a kite....

I know now what Love is....

It is you....

It is me....

It is the purity of our souls....

And the Love that is it....

To My Child

Yesterday, you were just born

Your hands was the size of my palm

Yesterday, you were just born

Your hand was the size of my palm…

Your skin, so tender soft

Your eyes, wandering and lost

Your breath gave me life

Your chuckle made me laugh

Yesterday…

Your touch was what I could die for

Your cry was music to my soul

I felt so complete, I felt so whole,

Yesterday…

You are but a part of me

Yet so unlike you are meant to be

You are but a part of me

Yet so unlike you are meant to be

My child…

Try Again!

I Stood on the shore all alone,

No one there to hear my cries,

I couldn't bear things going off my hands,

Even after giving thousands of tries.

A tear dropped off my eyes,

and mixed with the sea,

I wished I could find it back again,

'coz it was the only thing that belonged to me.

I moved ahead a few steps,

Till the water reached my knees,

Thoughts of suicide crossed my mind,

So that, from this useless body, I can set my soul free.

But my principles forced me back to the shore,

'coz this was not what I had lived for,

And death hasn't conquered me yet,

So I had unlimited attempts still to go.

I saw a ray of hope emerging from the sea,

And I showed my back to all the Pains,

I promised to try a still little harder,

And never to give up but TRY AGAIN.

Take Me Away

Absconded from all the desires n fear

After deprived of all the strength to bear

Waiting for the death to come near

Obsessed of all the life's brutality

Falling victim to life's cruelty

Got struck up in to gruesome fatality

Don't have an aspire to live this way

Wanna leave this world someway

With my heart full of distress hard to say

Mentally wounded somehow I stayed awake

Questioning up myself taking all that as fake

But sorrows hiked up though I wasn't on any stake

So threatful, so deadly is this world around me

Never let me open up won’t all I had in me

Made me realize it’s not the place to be

Lifeless this life I don't wanna live

It's true but it's hard to believe

Killing me up stripping my sense to perceive

Locked up in heart with no way to depart

These sorrows are tearing my body n soul apart

Angel’s please take me far away

I got no will to withstand n stay

No more wanna lead this life like stray

Letter

With every passing season I tried

to stop myself , and yet I cried,

not for the moments we were with each other,

but for those we could’ve been together.

I wished I could just bare my heart

to the only one it longed for,

I wished I could just make a start

for the love that I so sought for.

But afraid I was to say it all,

to come to you or even make a call,

as I feared what your answer would be,

although I knew I would lose a part of me.

So I finally gave my emotions ink,

when I wrote them down in an eye’s blink.

I poured my heart out like never before,

like a sea-hungry river racing for the shore.

The words wept along with me,

to which the moist letter bears testimony.

The trembling pen pleaded me to cease

but I had to write on, to end my worries.

Then atlast I held it up high,

and admired it from each eye,

for I hadn’t written anything so fair,

and I kissed it with hopes so dear.

“He just cannot say no”,

My dear friend would say,

“and you should straight away go,

give it to him, then pray.”

And there I stood in the deserted way,

waiting for him on one end’s entrance,

to say how I have loved you with my life and soul,

and why I just could not say it all.

I heard his laughter from the other end,

how mesmerized I was by it I couldn’t pretend;

but there he entered hand in hand, with another girl,

My vision went black, and my mind was in a whirl.

I ran away as fast as I could,

But couldn’t escape my shadow of despair;

and somewhere alone, restless, I stood,

and for the world around me, I no more cared.

I knew my feelings were betrayed

by the one for whom they ever lived.

Now years after the love that I had put in verse,

The letter still lingers somewhere in my purse.

Soulmate

An angel came into my life,

Showed me way to survive,

I was almost dead before he arrived,

his gentle touch aroused in my life.

His charm is brazen,

his innocence left me frozen,

the bond exists even before it was made,

heaven wants us to be kith,

because in previous incarnation we were soul mates.

The moments spent besides him were greatly missed,

With each passing day, I yearned to see him more,

to grab his attention, dainty attire I always wore,

the savor of his presence around, delighted me profound.

In my troubled times,

his support made me smile,

holding his hands, I calmed down,

his sweet words gave feeling so warm,

because of his unconditional help, I was never harmed.

His tantalizing touch stirred my soul,

my heart turned as pure as gold,

affection intensified with each passing day,

but his faith in me just faded away.

I opened my arms and closed my eyes,

expected a hug to keep me alive,

In me his trust, I could never revive,

Leaving me alone, he departed in search of life,

Someday I believe, again we will arrive.

Death

I'm dead, still but cold,

At least peaceful and purified,

Without unpleasant thoughts or deeds,

Being taken for my final or deals.

Maybe, I'll be laid in a grave,

Or on top of pyre for rest,

Exhausts are the fires of agony,

In my totally inactive breast.

Now, as eternal my soul remains,

Free, carefree as the clouds,

With neither anxiety chains,

Nor the painful anguish bonds.

I'm far from Earthly wants,

For no longer, my heart yells,

For neither thou need or want,

For I'm complete as my grave fills.

Blessings

When the path is thorny and vision blurred

Cascaded turbulence wavers through the mind

You surf me through this estranged world

Illuminating dark clouds with soft moonlight

When the grief stricken soul wails in anguish

Destinies fool around as hide and seek

You shove my fears away to vanish

Unveiling the rays of hope, melting away the misery

When the arms wide open searches for clues

The labyrinth of life directs no way around

You silently knock on the closed door

Embellishing the blue with the rainbow hues

When the pearls of wisdom lose their sheen

Reflections of life unearth uncertainties

You guide me through the thick and thin

Showering my soul with your choicest blessings