Who am I

The code is getting darker and murkier,
I was meant to be a Polymorphic one,
The designer made a metamorphic one,
The programmer developed an E.P.O.

I tried to mutate morph, spread and multiply,
I Encrypted my soul with a different key each time,
I pretended decryption routines,
I inserted and removed garbage instructions.

I switched op codes  & replaced entire logic blocks,
I patched function prologues& redirected control flows,
They said, I was in the wild,
They caught me, abused me, insulted me and disgraced me.

They could never crack my code,
So they put me in a "ZOO" and gave me a name "Crazy Hax0r"

Feelings are very difficult to be defined

Feelings are very difficult to be defined,
But when about you, they can hardly be confined,
Looking at this day when you were born,
God must have thought to send an angel, in human form.

While creating you, his best artist, must have had a hard time,
They have created a beauty that even the moon cannot outshine,
Imagining thousands of flowers lying on a white snow bed,
Among those flowers, you look like the only Rose that's red.

Your face is so pretty, so innocent, I have ever seen,
He must have thought and thought, about creating his own dream,
Your lovely smile resembles waves that reach the shore....
Every wave so beautiful, that it can't be just ignored....

Each second with you are, like a lifetime for me,
One life with you is, every dream comes true,
You are the only one here, beautiful as dove....
They say its lust for you, but I say its love....

Just watching you I lose myself,
Thinking about you I lose this world....
Even the beauty of universe seems to be jaded....
When you smile, every time beauty, seems to be added....

I know I could never tell you how it feels to be me....
And neither could ever tell you, you have my heart's key...
I was, I am, I would be your lover forever,
But I just know my words would reach you never......

To My Child

Yesterday, you were just born

Your hands was the size of my palm

Yesterday, you were just born

Your hand was the size of my palm…

Your skin, so tender soft

Your eyes, wandering and lost

Your breath gave me life

Your chuckle made me laugh

Yesterday…

Your touch was what I could die for

Your cry was music to my soul

I felt so complete, I felt so whole,

Yesterday…

You are but a part of me

Yet so unlike you are meant to be

You are but a part of me

Yet so unlike you are meant to be

My child…

Pleasure with Pain

A golden eve,

A sleepy sun,

A sparkling lake,

About to burnt.

A little bird

blowing with the wind,

trying to come back,

at her dancing tree.

A bluish me

standing apart

looking around

to be a part of these all.

A distracted mind

trying to still

driving me away

of the pleasure feel.

Me In This Heat

Every summer morning it is the same case,

I wake up because; the sun shine falls right on my face.

I try hard to sleep again,

But all my effort goes in vain.

Finally, I get up to start the day’s race,

I take a dip in cool water to find solace.

And just when I start enjoying the chill,

The warm air comes for the kill.

It gets almost impossible to walk on the street,

As I feel like fainting in this scorching heat.

Sitting at the bus stop is as of being cooked on a grill,

Trust me, I am serious and not building a mountain out of a molehill.

It feels so much better when the climate is cool and the surrounding is greener,

Ironically the same Sun that soothes me in winter, tends to burn in summer.

Oh, how wonderful it gets in the rain,

When the cool breeze blows and washes away all your strain.

I sit here and visualize that refreshing feel,

Like a magic worked and filled me with a rejuvenated zeal.

How I wish these thoughts come true to their meaning,

And little do I realize that it is nothing but day-dreaming.

Try Again!

I Stood on the shore all alone,

No one there to hear my cries,

I couldn't bear things going off my hands,

Even after giving thousands of tries.

A tear dropped off my eyes,

and mixed with the sea,

I wished I could find it back again,

'coz it was the only thing that belonged to me.

I moved ahead a few steps,

Till the water reached my knees,

Thoughts of suicide crossed my mind,

So that, from this useless body, I can set my soul free.

But my principles forced me back to the shore,

'coz this was not what I had lived for,

And death hasn't conquered me yet,

So I had unlimited attempts still to go.

I saw a ray of hope emerging from the sea,

And I showed my back to all the Pains,

I promised to try a still little harder,

And never to give up but TRY AGAIN.

She Has My Heart

She looks me straight in the eyes and rips out my heart

I’m speechless there’s nothing I can say

Tears begin to well up in my eyes

She asks me if I’m okay

I am far from okay

She says we can still be friend’s best friends

Those words linger in my mind

I never thought I would hear those words

I leave, I close off, and the pain is too much to bear

I can't help the loneliness I've turned my back on everyone even God

I'm alone all alone

I cry myself to sleep

I'm lost to the world I have this emptiness inside one that i can't fill

I still cry I don't know when the days come and go

I only seem to sink deeper into depression

I used to be so alive, so carefree

Ii guess I still am carefree because I don't seem to care anymore

I have this emptiness inside one that I try to fill but with all the wrong things

I cry out to God asking Him why, why all this hurt why all this pain

He tells me why

He tells me why all this hurt

He tells me why all this pain

He told me once before but my heart was too hard to listen and now in my moment of brokenness I can finally hear

I can hear Him; my days begin to get brighter

I try to keep my heart soft so that I can hear

It's harder than I thought but I don't give up

I  feel alone but I know that I’m not

I still have that darkness inside inside my heart it tries to pull me back but I won't let it

Ii ask God for help for someone to help me

He shows me I never thought it would be her ever since I first met her

She has had it, a piece of my heart ,she talks to me her voice soothes me it brings me comfort

We talk

We laugh

I hardly even notice anymore that the darkness has faded

I thank God for his help

I  thank God for her

She won't let me fall fall to where I was before

I am happy now

She listens to me, I listen to her

I  hold her tightly and I don’t let go

She is a part of my life

She is a part of me

She has my heart

Only this time I gave it to her

Colors Of Love

Love seems to come in varied hues,

When seen in life’s different avenues.

A mother’s love for sure

Is unconditional and pure.

A little child’s love for life,

Brims innocence, not strife.

Love from a lover’s heart,

Sometimes marred by jealousy’s dart.

God’s love forever pristine and divine,

Eternal is his love, ceaseless and sublime.

  

Expect not in Love, for then love becomes a naught,

To receive love you give, never cling to it by knot.

Hearts are conquered with love, not valor,

And Love begets love, that’s its true color!

Branded Love

I feel you on my skin, touching every pore,

It feels so good, that I want some more,

I feel so in love, I feel so good,

That you can make me happy, whatever my mood.

I feel you move, scrape against my skin,

I feel so excited, like committing a sin,

I forget myself, at those times with you,

Oh! My love for you, now feels so true.

Our moment is over, now you need to get off,

I feel hesitation, as you were so soft,

I keep you in closet, for another day,

Cuz you, Reebok Apparel, just make my day.

Burning Dreams

When the eyes burn

and tears melt

i reckon its time

to move on with the life

Things change

things go wrong

mist is everywhere

but still somewhere in our heart

we are always wishing for things

to go our way

knowing that our way

is not going to happen...

Hope keeps us up and going

high hope makes us fall

fall to such depths

that we can't even see sunlight

When its dark

its scary

yet the hope doesn't die sometimes

and this undieing hope

takes us out of our bad times

once out

we forget the dark

and start from where we left

doing one mistake

after the other

till we die

And we are dieing,

we think

we are taking with us

all our wishes

all our hopes

but we r soo wrong.

we die and leave our dreams

for those who are alive

and thus this continues

the earth spins

the trees dance

the mountains smile

to see us doing meaningless things

to get meaningless things

we are so insane....

Blessings

When the path is thorny and vision blurred

Cascaded turbulence wavers through the mind

You surf me through this estranged world

Illuminating dark clouds with soft moonlight

When the grief stricken soul wails in anguish

Destinies fool around as hide and seek

You shove my fears away to vanish

Unveiling the rays of hope, melting away the misery

When the arms wide open searches for clues

The labyrinth of life directs no way around

You silently knock on the closed door

Embellishing the blue with the rainbow hues

When the pearls of wisdom lose their sheen

Reflections of life unearth uncertainties

You guide me through the thick and thin

Showering my soul with your choicest blessings

Binding Differences

One fine day, as He looked from above,

The pride of creation sunk – it was Earth sans love.

The hearts He had paired with skillful similarities,

had converted the art into ugly disparities.

“Let me teach by example”,

He had a brain wave and crafted a pair, to differences engrave.

Such was the contrast in nature and aim,

It almost seemed impossible they shared the same name.

Took twenty one long years for them to meet,

But steel struck steel in the very first greet.

One like the sea, turbulence personified,

The other like the ocean, with calm inside.

One was honest, to the extent of being crude,

The other weighed words to refrain from being rude.

One had a heart as soft as a child’s,

The other’s was pure but far from being mild.

A year passed by as we witnessed in awe,

With differences so stark, how eye to eye they saw.

Anger with patience, hard work with smart,

They balanced the differences – masters of the art.

Covering up for the other’s mistakes,

They set the example – the “Different” namesakes.

The virtue of acceptance – to let differences bind,

And treasure His pairs, was the message to our kind

Be My Honey

It all started with a beautiful voice,

A voice that soothed my inner voids,

Oh! What a gem! I thought,

In a trance I was caught… 

I longed to hear that voice again,

As my voids rose up causing pain,

A strange feeling of emptiness crept in,

reason? That was what I was searching.

Then came a reply that refreshed,

All the thoughts & emotions depraved,

Of my attention, love & care,

Here they were, lying helpless and bare.

It was reason, which was eluding me,

Hiding, ducking, yet careless and free,

A phone number helped me finally,

To catch the reason in a dark alley.

The reason said I’m friendship,

I asked it, “are you mutual?”

It said “In such a relationship,

I can change and still be factual.”

The reason confused mea lot,

I agree it had given me a start,

And then, when I finally tore it apart,

I knew it had reached your heart.

What can I say about you dear?

I just wish, you could be here,

And hold me tightly in an embrace,

And wipe the tears off my face.

A graceful soul, a lovely heart,

A kind nature, a class act,

I love you for what you do and say,

And will always do so. Come what may.

You’ve become my strength now,

You’re not sure? But I know.

I’ll be happy being with you,

Live, love & learn things new.

Come let’s start a journey,

Of love, of life, of harmony,

What do you say honey?

Will you be my honey?

Miss U message 3

When You Are Not Here

         Its Not Just Me

                 My Smile, My Touch, My Glance,

                            My Expressions Of Love Too

                                        Are Waiting For You…

Cigarette Ash Message

A Nice Quote: A fully burnt Cigarette Ash Said…

“Today it’s me, because of you. 

Tomorrow it’s you, because of me”

**Statutory Warning: Smoking is injurious to Health

Am I

Am I?

Not a bead glistens my eyelashes when I am in intractable trauma,
But can’t stop my surging tears when my hero dies in an onscreen drama;
Am I weird?

I crave and miss my loved one, whom I cannot see,
Is it because he is no longer there for ME?
Am I selfish?

I wish to pull the moon and wrap it around,
I long to get hold of Aladdin’s magic lamp to fulfill my wishes unbound;
Am I immature?

Death scares me, Rejection scoffs at me, Expectations tenses me,
The fear of losing my kith and kin terrifies me;
Am I a coward?

Am I weird, selfish, immature and a coward?
So many negatives huddled in a pod,
Am I a pessimist?
By ane