She looks me straight in the eyes and rips out my heart
I’m speechless there’s nothing I can say
Tears begin to well up in my eyes
She asks me if I’m okay
I am far from okay
She says we can still be friend’s best friends
Those words linger in my mind
I never thought I would hear those words
I leave, I close off, and the pain is too much to bear
I can't help the loneliness I've turned my back on everyone even God
I'm alone all alone
I cry myself to sleep
I'm lost to the world I have this emptiness inside one that i can't fill
I still cry I don't know when the days come and go
I only seem to sink deeper into depression
I used to be so alive, so carefree
Ii guess I still am carefree because I don't seem to care anymore
I have this emptiness inside one that I try to fill but with all the wrong things
I cry out to God asking Him why, why all this hurt why all this pain
He tells me why
He tells me why all this hurt
He tells me why all this pain
He told me once before but my heart was too hard to listen and now in my moment of brokenness I can finally hear
I can hear Him; my days begin to get brighter
I try to keep my heart soft so that I can hear
It's harder than I thought but I don't give up
I feel alone but I know that I’m not
I still have that darkness inside inside my heart it tries to pull me back but I won't let it
Ii ask God for help for someone to help me
He shows me I never thought it would be her ever since I first met her
She has had it, a piece of my heart ,she talks to me her voice soothes me it brings me comfort
We talk
We laugh
I hardly even notice anymore that the darkness has faded
I thank God for his help
I thank God for her
She won't let me fall fall to where I was before
I am happy now
She listens to me, I listen to her
I hold her tightly and I don’t let go
She is a part of my life
She is a part of me
She has my heart
Only this time I gave it to her