Journey Of My Life

Time to introspect…...

Happiness is like a breath of fresh air that touches me for a moment and fades away…...

Leaving behind memories to cling on,

Feeling loneliness and rejection.

The sweet sensation that had enthralled me gradually fading away,

To seclusion, I see my life drifting away.

A life without any charm or substance…...

Am not liking this place anymore,

I’m going to get out of here for sure.

Still searching for a better tomorrow…...

Many more miles to walk,

Many more valleys to cross,

The road I know is unending and long…...

Carrying with me the burden of my memories and sorrows,

Feeling insanely lost and forlorn.

Am tired and need to rest,

Don’t know when I’m going to find my nest…...

Thinking hard about life...

Here I am sitting in my office @ night, thinking hard about life

How it changed from maverick college life to strict professional life.

How tiny pocket money changed to huge monthly pay checks,

But then why it gives less happiness.

How a few local denim jeans changed to new branded one,

But then why there are less people to use them.

How a single plate of samosa changed to a full pizza or burger,

But then why there is less hunger.

Here I am sitting in my office @ night, thinking hard about life.

How a bike always in reserve changed to main,

But then why there are fewer places to go.

How a limited prepaid card changed to post paid package,

But then why there are fewer calls and more messages.

Here I am sitting in my office @ night, thinking hard about life.

How an old assembled desk top changed to a branded laptop,

But then why there is less time to put it on.

How a small bunch of friends changed to office mates,

But then why we always feel lonely and miss those collage friends,

Here I am sitting in my office @ night, thinking hard about life.

There to Share

 A wish you will always win & gain…

Remember I would be there in your pains….

Don’t let yourself down in the life…

I too may suffer the bad times…

All its life, and everything is fair…

Just remember I would be there to share!!

You may be pain those dark nights in life……

But the Trust in me shall be stars in light 

Life may take us on different paths,

but minds alike will share a lot!!

Be assured I would stand by you everywhere,

Not sure that a glance always be there

Share your heart & share your tears……

Rest assured….I would be there to share!!!

To My Child

Yesterday, you were just born

Your hands was the size of my palm

Yesterday, you were just born

Your hand was the size of my palm…

Your skin, so tender soft

Your eyes, wandering and lost

Your breath gave me life

Your chuckle made me laugh

Yesterday…

Your touch was what I could die for

Your cry was music to my soul

I felt so complete, I felt so whole,

Yesterday…

You are but a part of me

Yet so unlike you are meant to be

You are but a part of me

Yet so unlike you are meant to be

My child…

They said I said

I was born at the time of war.

They said I won’t survive because times are hard.

I said I would be strong because times are hard.

I was put in expensive and famous school.

They said I will learn good manners and get good education.

I said I found dishonest teachers and discrimination.

In my life

They said I don't know to talk, how to crack jokes.

I said I will still make friends.

They said I am too slow, I am not smart.

I said I will still be rich.

They said Life is too cruel, it will take away your friends, it will take away your brothers, it will take away your family, you will have nothing to turn up to.

I said I will still have hope and hope is all I need.

AT LAST

They said I can't write.

I said see I have written this.

Frustrated Life

Laying on my bed,

head under my pillow,

not letting anyone know,

but tears flowing below,

can’t enjoy a moment,

though worldly comforts by my side,

this is nothing ,

but my frustrated life

My life is a game,

which I’ve always lost,

and those who won,

were all at my cost,

tired after giving thousands of tries,

But never I rested nor I sighed,

This is nothing but my frustrated life.

I loved everyone,

but was hated the most,

all sailed deep in the sea of joy,

leaving me at the coast,

hiding tears in my eyes,

I had to smile,

this is nothing

but my frustrated life.

I say many things,

but I m always unheard

and all misunderstood a lot,

though I never uttered a word,

though I m at my destiny,

it seems to walk far miles,

this is nothing,

but my frustrated life.

When Death Speaks

I am about to perish forever,

but few tastes of life I am still to savor.

I am yet to feel the real beauty,

am yet not over with my petty duties.  

I know my end is nearing me,

in some time, I won't hear or see.

But I still have a few unspoken words,

I still have to see before my vision is blurred. 

 a thousand places I have never been to,

with green grass below and sky above blue.

I wish I had just some time more left,

so that I could die free from this bereft. 

 Time in my life had never stopped,

the pace of life had never dropped.

and I never wished so when I was alive

but now for a single breath I do strive.  

I wish I could tell you one more time,

that when I see you my heart chimes.

you were the best thing I ever had

leaving you behind makes me incomplete and sad. 

 But now it’s time for me to leave,

my nerves can feel the special eve.

so goodbye all my friends and foes,

my last wave to all before my eyes close.

Moving towards a green future

I want to run away,

Away from this world

Where air is not fresh any more

Where water is not clean any more

Where Roads are full of honking vehicles

Where life is not peaceful any more

Then I turn back and think

Let me give another try

I can’t run away like this

Leaving Mother Earth to cry

She has suffered a lot

She might tolerate little more

Why do we still want to

Trouble her to the core?

Lets help her get back to life

Let’s work to reduce her pain

Lets aim to make this world

Better for everyone’s gain

Lets plant more trees

Let’s cut down on the waste

Lets recycle used stuff

Let’s do that without haste

Lets spread the happiness

Lets reduce the sorrows

Lets join hands together

Let’s create a greener tomorrow.

Life means More

Life is a series of events,

Both good and bad

Some make you happy,

Others make you sad

You wait for beautiful things,

And enjoy while they are ON

Why do you then get miserable

The moment they are gone?

Look forward to life, leave the past behind you

A wonderful future may be lying ahead of you

Expect good things to happen more for you

Life has pleasant surprises in store for you

What if the good times end?

Don’t worry, life has more to send

There’s always a beginning and an end

Be excited about the beginning, but also accept the end

Always remember the highs and forget the lows

Don’t trouble yourself, don’t spoil the show

Whatever comes your way, accept it with a bow

Cheer up buddy, there’s a long way to go

Every situation in life,

Gives you two roads to get on

It could be a pull towards past

Or a futuristic push on

You have to decide finally

Are you staying back or moving on?

Life!!

Where do the good times disappear,
When they have come and gone....?
Replaced with new friends, not by choice,
But cause something went wrong?

My new friends may bring with them,
Some words that make me smile,
Still I feel melancholy,
For what was once our style.

I think about times passage,
About a promise gone,
Are friendships not forever?
Meant not to last for long?

At end of each new day now,
Without a word from you....
I try to cover up the hurt,
Pretend that I'm not blue.

I try to go on with my life,
Accept you're not a part,
But sad eyes are the mirror of,
The ache that fills my heart.

We All

In the midst of recession,

Let’s seek concession in our tension.

It’s been a long way for Lay off’s,

Let’s just relax and Pull off.

Changing times are giving importance to election,

To put at bay the act of terrorism.

Would a new Leader bring stir in a nation?

Or it’s just to add agony in the present situation.

With the invasion of internet, the world became flat,

Our cultures have renewed, so are our perceptions.

Social networking sites are used for communication,

The lifestyle we adopt is so lonely and unsecured,

Trusting faceless friends over chat has become a common notion.

Relationships earlier so strong,

Now expire just walking along.

To be in the rat race, we exploit our innocence,

Money and material make us flatter,   

We feel nothing else matter.

Search for comfort and luxury it all takes,

To rebel with others and overtake.

Is there any threshold limit to desires?

However, believing in the course of destiny cannot be our way.

Every situation is make or break,

To survive it might seem a hardest way.

I Dream!!

In brutal scorching summer days,
on each freezing winter morning,
sitting awake on raining nights,
I dream of spring...

No chill blinds, no stormy winds,
and the sun portraying a flying dove...
Amidst blooming flowers and soothing breeze,
I dream of love...

The purest passion, a mad obsession,
having the innocence of morning dew...
With the serene vision of a million roses,
I dream of you...

Scent of your joy, rendering all worries coy,
your laughter drowning every strife...
With your presence beautifying even my thoughts,
I dream of a beautiful life...

I open my eyes, to a merry life...
with my vision caressed by the spring hue...
Worlds apart, having love in my heart,
with open eyes, I still dream of you...:-)

Scavenger

Life hangs by a thread

People wait to beat their chests

The lamp goes out and

A stream of smoke rises with the wail

On the village outskirts, the scavenger rejoices

Today his children will eat their fill

Letter

With every passing season I tried

to stop myself , and yet I cried,

not for the moments we were with each other,

but for those we could’ve been together.

I wished I could just bare my heart

to the only one it longed for,

I wished I could just make a start

for the love that I so sought for.

But afraid I was to say it all,

to come to you or even make a call,

as I feared what your answer would be,

although I knew I would lose a part of me.

So I finally gave my emotions ink,

when I wrote them down in an eye’s blink.

I poured my heart out like never before,

like a sea-hungry river racing for the shore.

The words wept along with me,

to which the moist letter bears testimony.

The trembling pen pleaded me to cease

but I had to write on, to end my worries.

Then atlast I held it up high,

and admired it from each eye,

for I hadn’t written anything so fair,

and I kissed it with hopes so dear.

“He just cannot say no”,

My dear friend would say,

“and you should straight away go,

give it to him, then pray.”

And there I stood in the deserted way,

waiting for him on one end’s entrance,

to say how I have loved you with my life and soul,

and why I just could not say it all.

I heard his laughter from the other end,

how mesmerized I was by it I couldn’t pretend;

but there he entered hand in hand, with another girl,

My vision went black, and my mind was in a whirl.

I ran away as fast as I could,

But couldn’t escape my shadow of despair;

and somewhere alone, restless, I stood,

and for the world around me, I no more cared.

I knew my feelings were betrayed

by the one for whom they ever lived.

Now years after the love that I had put in verse,

The letter still lingers somewhere in my purse.

Subtle Love

A friend of mine tall and lean

always grinning, never grim

had a girl, of his dreams

kept it secret, never screamed

She, artless and witty

as per him, epitome of simplicity

never expressed her propensity

dilemma for him, her ambiguity

Still muggy scenes, waiting for reply

you love him, yes he never denies

all here is truth, no lies

two lovebirds, I think will never fly.

Dreams of reality

The dreams always present in life

Never fulfilled but never remorse,

For better things in life go on

You never dreamt of, yet fulfilled.

The ruins of tomorrow sadly desolate

Yet castles of today tell a glittery tale.

Cobwebs galore in the dark corners,

Needs cleaning yet we ignore.

The enemy assails the castle walls

Fierce fighting rages amidst a storm.

Blood tarnishing the finely painted walls,

The storm and the battle raise a clamorous din.

No victor no vanquished in the end;

Only time Remains as if suspended in animation

While the roots eat into the base of walls,

Nothing permanent, nothing is too strong.

I come out of a stupor; disbelieving

Was it just a daydream because coincidence it wasn’t?

The ruins they now speak a different tale,

Of glory yet shame, of honor and of pain

Transient in time it's true yet

Always present through one of us