Buried Alive For You!!

Don't search for me,
don't look around,
don't bother calling my name,
I won't be found...
For gone I am now,
and gone are the days,
when I'd sparkle your dark sky,
in my subtle moony ways...

But the light was dim;
it was almost gentle grey....
It couldn't vanquish the dark,
as it came from so far way....

Now a new morn has begun,
the horizon has brought a new sun along...
A new light is shimmering;
sounding is a merry new day song....

With the sky in its deserving glow,
it was time for the moon to go,
for it has lost its visibility now,
neither is it needed anymore....

Don't search for me,
don't look around,
don't bother calling my name,
I won't be found...
Don't cry for my pain,
I can live with it, I'll survive...
I am not dead, believe me,
I've just buried myself alive…

I've even hid my grave,
for you might dig out for me…
But exposed if I am to the sun,
set on fire I might soon be....

I am not afraid of sustaining burns,
what scares me is the thought of burning sky…
Let me sleep till the wake of night,
don't ask me where, don't ask me why...

I'll be out on my own,
when you'll need to call on me,
when darkness falls again,
which I wish never happens to be...

Don't search for me,
don't look around,
please don't call my name,
I don't want to be found...
Please don't make it any harder,
it’s already hard enough for me...
My soul aches for the pain I bring to you,
but it’s the least painful way I can see...

My heart will always beat for you,
for giving me the strength to shine...
I'll be yours forever to claim;
though I know you may never be mine...

Slept in my coffin I lie,
dreaming of a beautiful life for you...
Leave me to my wonderland,
while you keep my dream alive and true!!

There to Share

 A wish you will always win & gain…

Remember I would be there in your pains….

Don’t let yourself down in the life…

I too may suffer the bad times…

All its life, and everything is fair…

Just remember I would be there to share!!

You may be pain those dark nights in life……

But the Trust in me shall be stars in light 

Life may take us on different paths,

but minds alike will share a lot!!

Be assured I would stand by you everywhere,

Not sure that a glance always be there

Share your heart & share your tears……

Rest assured….I would be there to share!!!

Mother

The smoke has blinded my sight

I know not what’s wrong from right.

Mother, can you make me able again?

Mother, can you ease my dying pain?

Mother, can you take me by the hand?

Mother, can you lead this blind man?

Mother will do all she can

Mother is here to understand…

Mother will make you able again.

Mother will ease your dying pain.

Mother will take you by the hand

Open your eyes child, you are not blind…

The worms have come to take me to the grave

My thoughts have hollowed inward, nothing worth the save

Mother, can you fix this hollow mind?

Mother, can you make me a little kind?

Mother, can you help me determine?

Mother, can you check my vital signs?

Mother will do all she can

Mother is here to understand…

Mother will fix your hollow mind

Mother will make you a little kind

Mother will help you determine

Open your eyes child, you will be fine…

The rot has set in the iron chains

The rust has eaten up all the remains.

Mother, can you build me a castle high?

Mother, can you free me from these lies?

Mother, can you teach me how to fly?

Mother, can you reach me to the skies?

Mother will do all she can

Mother is here to understand…

Mother will build you a castle high

Mother will shield you from all the lies

Mother will teach you how to fly

Open your eyes child; you are in the skies…

Moving towards a green future

I want to run away,

Away from this world

Where air is not fresh any more

Where water is not clean any more

Where Roads are full of honking vehicles

Where life is not peaceful any more

Then I turn back and think

Let me give another try

I can’t run away like this

Leaving Mother Earth to cry

She has suffered a lot

She might tolerate little more

Why do we still want to

Trouble her to the core?

Lets help her get back to life

Let’s work to reduce her pain

Lets aim to make this world

Better for everyone’s gain

Lets plant more trees

Let’s cut down on the waste

Lets recycle used stuff

Let’s do that without haste

Lets spread the happiness

Lets reduce the sorrows

Lets join hands together

Let’s create a greener tomorrow.

Pleasure with Pain

A golden eve,

A sleepy sun,

A sparkling lake,

About to burnt.

A little bird

blowing with the wind,

trying to come back,

at her dancing tree.

A bluish me

standing apart

looking around

to be a part of these all.

A distracted mind

trying to still

driving me away

of the pleasure feel.

Try Again!

I Stood on the shore all alone,

No one there to hear my cries,

I couldn't bear things going off my hands,

Even after giving thousands of tries.

A tear dropped off my eyes,

and mixed with the sea,

I wished I could find it back again,

'coz it was the only thing that belonged to me.

I moved ahead a few steps,

Till the water reached my knees,

Thoughts of suicide crossed my mind,

So that, from this useless body, I can set my soul free.

But my principles forced me back to the shore,

'coz this was not what I had lived for,

And death hasn't conquered me yet,

So I had unlimited attempts still to go.

I saw a ray of hope emerging from the sea,

And I showed my back to all the Pains,

I promised to try a still little harder,

And never to give up but TRY AGAIN.

Be My Honey

It all started with a beautiful voice,

A voice that soothed my inner voids,

Oh! What a gem! I thought,

In a trance I was caught… 

I longed to hear that voice again,

As my voids rose up causing pain,

A strange feeling of emptiness crept in,

reason? That was what I was searching.

Then came a reply that refreshed,

All the thoughts & emotions depraved,

Of my attention, love & care,

Here they were, lying helpless and bare.

It was reason, which was eluding me,

Hiding, ducking, yet careless and free,

A phone number helped me finally,

To catch the reason in a dark alley.

The reason said I’m friendship,

I asked it, “are you mutual?”

It said “In such a relationship,

I can change and still be factual.”

The reason confused mea lot,

I agree it had given me a start,

And then, when I finally tore it apart,

I knew it had reached your heart.

What can I say about you dear?

I just wish, you could be here,

And hold me tightly in an embrace,

And wipe the tears off my face.

A graceful soul, a lovely heart,

A kind nature, a class act,

I love you for what you do and say,

And will always do so. Come what may.

You’ve become my strength now,

You’re not sure? But I know.

I’ll be happy being with you,

Live, love & learn things new.

Come let’s start a journey,

Of love, of life, of harmony,

What do you say honey?

Will you be my honey?

At times when I was alone

At times when I was alone,

Nobody be in my side.

You were the one, who approached me,

You were the one who ebbed the tide.

Whenever I felt sad,

Whenever I felt I would cry,

You were the comforter,

Yours was the shoulder asking me to give it a try.

You were the one, who made me feel at ease,

For there were times when I felt alone.

Whenever I met with a road block,

You suggested that it was a stepping stone.

Today I regret having hurt you,

Today I hate myself for having caused you pain.

I don't know why I did it; I don't know why I always lose what I gain....

message on life

The pain of life is pure salt; no more, no less.
The amount of pain in life remains the same, exactly the same.
But the amount we taste the 'pain'
depends on the container we put it into.

So when you are in pain,
the only thing you can do is to enlarge your send of things...

Stop being a Glass. Become a Lake!

War and Peace

War and Peace

War and Peace Seeds of hatred,

Seeds of terror Grown in the minds of horror

Eagles and vultures dive in the skies

Blood and Bodies I can see all around

Lost my son, lost my husband, 

My  father lying in the pool of red,

Daughters and wives being disgraced all around,

No one to listen, not one to hold my hand,

My cries go far and in vain.

So someone cries beyond the borders

I can hear he too lost his father.

There across the fence I can see,

A mother for her son is weeping.

What more mayhem do I see?

No different is this war scene.

I know not who wins who loses,

I can only see pains and bruises.

Wounds and scars never to be filled,

Only shattering memories of bloodshed to live with,

This is all that War can give,

Then why don’t I pray for Peace?

Here I raise my hands OH Lord!

Because war is not the way of world

After all these apocalyptic scene

My soul yearns to live in Peace.

U r my only asset to whom i owe

"u r my only asset to whom i owe"

Silently, I sit by the window gazing the horizon

As for me it seems the time has frozen

Darkness is all what is pouring in

The only sound I can hear is my heart beating

My eyes feeling sleepy and heavy with pain

I could see on my cloth-the nasty red stain

 

I know there is nothing more for me to gain

Still I am continuing my desperate prayers-all in vain 

A sudden nightmare has shattered my identity

Which counted on me an irreversible casualty

 

A drunken driver, and for saving a child

He left me amidst the world howling wild

Together we had embarked on a treasured love

With our innate pious feelings well gelled up

He always would say

         "A life full of hardships, I was leading

         And from nowhere as an angel you walked in"

He was there to hold my hands always

To make me the happiest with his crazy ways

When I feared that I would be left lonely

My dearest one would embrace cozily

Kicking my feelings of life's agony

But now I sit by the window gazing the horizon

As my life slowly engulfing the deadly poison

One day he had whispered to me low

"You are my only asset to whom I owe"

Now dear, it’s my turn to show

That I can fight all the shackling woes

Now, I can feel my pain getting numb

Reaching for you dear, just hold my arm

The frozen time has again started flowing

As I sit by the window with my eyes closing 

byTanu