She Has My Heart

She looks me straight in the eyes and rips out my heart

I’m speechless there’s nothing I can say

Tears begin to well up in my eyes

She asks me if I’m okay

I am far from okay

She says we can still be friend’s best friends

Those words linger in my mind

I never thought I would hear those words

I leave, I close off, and the pain is too much to bear

I can't help the loneliness I've turned my back on everyone even God

I'm alone all alone

I cry myself to sleep

I'm lost to the world I have this emptiness inside one that i can't fill

I still cry I don't know when the days come and go

I only seem to sink deeper into depression

I used to be so alive, so carefree

Ii guess I still am carefree because I don't seem to care anymore

I have this emptiness inside one that I try to fill but with all the wrong things

I cry out to God asking Him why, why all this hurt why all this pain

He tells me why

He tells me why all this hurt

He tells me why all this pain

He told me once before but my heart was too hard to listen and now in my moment of brokenness I can finally hear

I can hear Him; my days begin to get brighter

I try to keep my heart soft so that I can hear

It's harder than I thought but I don't give up

I  feel alone but I know that I’m not

I still have that darkness inside inside my heart it tries to pull me back but I won't let it

Ii ask God for help for someone to help me

He shows me I never thought it would be her ever since I first met her

She has had it, a piece of my heart ,she talks to me her voice soothes me it brings me comfort

We talk

We laugh

I hardly even notice anymore that the darkness has faded

I thank God for his help

I  thank God for her

She won't let me fall fall to where I was before

I am happy now

She listens to me, I listen to her

I  hold her tightly and I don’t let go

She is a part of my life

She is a part of me

She has my heart

Only this time I gave it to her

Be My Honey

It all started with a beautiful voice,

A voice that soothed my inner voids,

Oh! What a gem! I thought,

In a trance I was caught… 

I longed to hear that voice again,

As my voids rose up causing pain,

A strange feeling of emptiness crept in,

reason? That was what I was searching.

Then came a reply that refreshed,

All the thoughts & emotions depraved,

Of my attention, love & care,

Here they were, lying helpless and bare.

It was reason, which was eluding me,

Hiding, ducking, yet careless and free,

A phone number helped me finally,

To catch the reason in a dark alley.

The reason said I’m friendship,

I asked it, “are you mutual?”

It said “In such a relationship,

I can change and still be factual.”

The reason confused mea lot,

I agree it had given me a start,

And then, when I finally tore it apart,

I knew it had reached your heart.

What can I say about you dear?

I just wish, you could be here,

And hold me tightly in an embrace,

And wipe the tears off my face.

A graceful soul, a lovely heart,

A kind nature, a class act,

I love you for what you do and say,

And will always do so. Come what may.

You’ve become my strength now,

You’re not sure? But I know.

I’ll be happy being with you,

Live, love & learn things new.

Come let’s start a journey,

Of love, of life, of harmony,

What do you say honey?

Will you be my honey?