I don't

I don't close my eyes,
because, when
I close my eyes,
I see her in my dreams.

I don't open my message inbox,
because, when
I open it,
I expect her message to arrive.

I don't utter a single word,
because, when
I speak,
I speak only about her.

I don't write a single word,
because, when
I write,
I eulogize her.

I don't go out,
because, when
I wish to do so,
I expect her to come with me.

I don't read a single word,
because, when
I read,
I want to read her name.